The Thickness
of your apathy is a mute and stifling fog.
once warmth wrapped a blanket – shared, cuddled, spooned.
now. this leaden layer crushes all air. steals. steels. my lungs, my life.
my love – color – faded from the dull gray glaze of your detachment.
choking on my failure to keep your heart impassioned.
i am loser. i am let down. too much trouble. not enough.
i inhale and i am gulping. suffocating. strained.
swallowing the thinnest vapor of your vanishing affection.
What is it?
What is it that you think you know? And where might you have learned it?
From books you’ve read? From things you’ve heard?
From facts you took at someone’s word?
Did you pass the test? Did you make the grade? Did you nod your head?
Have you always obeyed?
Would a knife draw blood inside a box?
Or might you need to wield the blade?
pic by What What / CC BY-NC-SA 2.0
Animal Collective
This mischief of mice started by a company of moles,
passed through a congregation of crocodiles,
while behind the murder of crows.
When the glaring of cats met the gaze of twelve raccoons,
they saw a crash of hippopotami crush the congress of baboons.
* pssst – feel free to ask for a hint!
It’s True
You didn’t believe it. Then you did. Then you cried.
People tried to console you – but as Millay said – they lied.
The pain never leaves you. It takes root inside.
You can walk for miles with a stone in your shoe.
It’s lodged and it hurts, but walk on you do.
It’s not that the pain ever starts to subside -
You either stop walking or you lean as you stride.
This is how death is. This is loss – this is true.
When you lose those you love, the pain stays stuck to you.
Some days it’s less sharp, like the stone in your shoe.
The pain isn’t gone – what has shifted is you.



